Another cement busting week which has been evolving day by day. This week has just seemed to fly by and I think that has a lot to do with reviewing Mark’s recording on using anger, fear, unworthiness, hurt feelings, and guilt as tools at the beginning of the week. I loved going back to old memories that popped into my conscious mind from wherever they are in the ethers where I had those feelings and just observing them, not reliving them, and realizing that because I still had them somewhere in my consciousness that they were part of the old cement that still needed to released. And then to notice than whenever those same feelings come up now that they are in fact tools to be used to move thru them and not roadblocks that stop me.
One that I have allowed to be a roadblock for me up until now was the thought that I was interrupting people when I called them on the phone. So this week especially I’ve let that one go which has really freed me up. I know exactly where the hurt feelings developed years ago when I called one of my best friends and he got pissed at me for interrupting him at work. It’s never happened since but at an unconscious level, I piled some cement on that hurt feeling like a band-aid to guard me from letting it happen again. So all that did was keep it in place and every time I made a phone call, it was there at some deeper level , so it took an act of will-power to overcome it. How exhausting has that been? It’s so much fun to understand how this mechanism works so that it can be repaired so to speak. I hope that makes sense and is helpful to others of how to use that lesson. The bottom-line for me is that my comfort zone has expanded.
Regarding Part 21 in the Master Key, WOW! there is so much meat there. Spiritual laws, just like the laws of electricity, mathematics, and chemistry, are definite, scientific, exact,and operate with immutable precision. I remember loving mathematics and chemistry because there was a right answer…not that I always got it right, but I liked that there was a correct answer.
To realize that each individual is a channel to the Universal Mind and it is our ability to think that is our ability to act upon this Universal Substance, and that what we think, including big and small thoughts, is what is created or produced in the objective world. In the sit instructions, I was so taken by the concept that nothing can stand in the way of scientifically correct thought,methods, and principles. Bam!